With every ring of the phone I think this is it...mom is gone.

We are on the Do Not Call list so we don't get the calls from people trying to sell us something...but we do still get calls from Charities we support and magazines we subscribe to..and now with Mom so near to going home...well you can imagine.

Yesterday, for those who may not know, we got "that call" telling us that mom was fading fast she had maybe two weeks, but could go earlier, and if we wish to say our goodbyes and gather out-of-town family this would be the time to do that.

So we spent a restless, anxious day waiting.  To releive some of the tension our girls, we have twin daughter and two sons, and I played UNO.  Our girls are twelve and like most twelve year olds the world seems to be a place that revolves around them; well, our youngest twin daughter looked up from her cards and said: "Mom this feels like I'm waiting for a test!"

Out of the mouths of babes!

This does feel like a test. 

Many of us have heard of Stephen Covey, or my favorite Vic Conant of Nightingale-Conant, the time management gurus who suggest that we look at how we wish to be eulogized to detrimine what our calling is from God; how we wish to live our lives. We want people to miss us, say great things about us and speak of a life will lived.  Well, if you want that you have to live that now!

It's a sobering thought to think of how we will be remembered when we are dead. 

To think about how we are living the call God has given us as others saw us doing it and now are commenting on that. 

To think of all that we did and did not do for our brothers and sisters here while we were on earth. 

To think of how, if we are brutely honest with ourselves, how others truly see us, not the imaginary hoped for eulogy, but how we are truly seen, to imagine what they will TRULY say, how they will truly react to our passing.  Will we be the anger person who has just a handful of people who will mourn, but not really mourn.  Or will we be one of the lucky few who touched lives with great love?


It's a time to rethink how we deal with people, how we love as Christ loved, how we are living for Christ RIGHT now.

Its something I am thinking about how 'bout you?

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